Disturbed Mind

Killing my time here,
blurred vision,
blessed with the power of decision,
create our own fate,
making our own mistakes,
fucking up
& I'm still standing up straight,
praying god help me
rise above it,
losing my soul,
hoping this isn't false control,
chasing a buzz to forget who I was,
standing in the bathroom
starting at my reflection
wishing for a direction